Thoughts

Why do I feel such an aching to be successful? Relevant? Important? Loved and admired? Does everyone feel this way? Is it a lack of confidence in myself that fuels this, or just part of human nature? Is it growing up in America and having the American Dream thrust down my throat? Logic tells me that I can be irrelevant. In fact, that I would be happier if I was so. "More money, more problems" and the like attest to that fact. But it's not only being successful in monetary endeavors - in wisdom as well. In relationships. Why can't I just accept the life that I have, live each day to the fullest, take opportunities that come to me, and when they expire, just let them go? (Sorry for the cliches) Why do I have to hold on to everything so tightly? Why do I put self-worth in things like Facebook and Blogs? In how many repins I get on Pinterest? Seriously? Putting my self-worth in Pinterest? That will probably be here today and gone tomorrow?

Think on that. But not for too long. I've found that if it's all thinking and no action, I just feel very wise in knowing all of the answers, but am a big fat hypocrite when applying it to my own life.

Now, look at this girl. Not only is it a wonderful photograph, and a piece of art in itself, but look at her! Just bouncing on a yoga ball down the road. I think she was playing a game of bouncing down a small hill. How carefree! How exhilarating! 

Challenge for myself: Make my life more like this girl's. Enjoy it. Savor it. Be content. Have a fashion blog for the enjoyment of art, writing, and fashion. Keep a Pinterest account for the enjoyment of finding new artists and recipes. Use Facebook to keep in touch with people. Not for self-worth. Not for value. Lord help us all.

And lastly, my life in a nutshell right now.